But HA I also knew from deep inside, that dim distant light, knew that Lisa was right. I got the MRI and looked at the physical destruction that the film showed me. So, I re-enforced the armor and carried on with my hunt for the "real reason" I was in so much pain. ![]() She had seen me and I was vulnerable and scared shitless. The fake smile that I had plastered on for over a decade got chipped the moment Lisa saw me. I will never forget hearing Lisa say to me that my pain was emotional. I was self medicating with alcohol and drugs which provided a nice roller coaster of fake-masked ease followed by inflamed angry pain. I was receiving traditional chiropractic adjustments that helped sometimes. I was so numb and blind and I had no strategies for healing, I was stuck. But I still had no idea that I needed help. I was limiting my activities, I was having trouble sitting in class, I was sad, lonely and tired. ![]() The only indicators I had was that I was in severe back pain. She not only saw it, she could feel it pulsating through me, while I was practically numb to it. We had a brief encounter one day at the gym where she let me know that she saw my suffering. Luckily a friend at chiropractic school did.
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